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Thursday, 17 July 2008

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Letters to Malcolm: Chiefly on Prayer
By C.S. Lewis
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Thirty something

When I was in my twenties, I thought thirties was the age to be. I thought I'd be so much more mature, wiser and knowledgeable. Last tonight, as I reflected upon the past decade, recounting all the mistakes I made in those years, and honestly not knowing if I had learned from any of it, I realized that I know very little still. The world now seems a bigger mystery to me (and I'm not sure if I'm excited or eager to uncover it). It is unlike any other feeling I've ever had. For those who are in your thirties or have gone through your thirties, do you ever feel that way?
C and I are grateful to God for providing so abundantly and for blessing us beyond our imagination. Our hearts are filled with total joy as we take our walks each morning, soaking in the morning freshness and God's creation all around us, and enjoying each other's company. I don't know of any other time in my adult years that I feel as content and lacking in nothing as I do now. But with this bliss, I feel somewhat ignorant and almost bad about it. It's hard to explain.

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

Random thoughts

haven't attempted to blog anything in a while, and had forgotten about the previous entry on that one random day when i so desperately tried to connect to the outside world. whatever happened? i think the tv eventually filled the void.

our friend T's mother just passed away suddenly last week. stroke. what made me sad wasn't so much that she passed cuz i never knew her, but the thought of 'what if my own mother passes on now.' at least T's mother knew Christ and she is at a place that's a thousand times better than this world. where would my mother go? where does anyone go after death? the answer might be obvious but for those of us who live in denial and live as though we're immortal ~ it tug my heart deeply cuz for the rest of my life i would know that i didn't diligently pray for her. very selfishly i decided to pray for those who i still want to see in heaven. that thought made me laugh. i know.. weird.

when did xanga start advertising on one's public sites?

i leave here a few pictures from last year...from honeymoon to around christmas.

View from our hotel in Nice.

our tour guide clearly did not care that he had just beheaded michelangelo behind us.

for once in a life time experience, do dine at Enoteca Pinchiorri if you're in florence. at US$100 per glass of wine and $250 per entree, you are truly the king and queen for the evening.

shanghai in november, with stinky tofu at US$1 per plate. yummy!

operation christmas child ~ do not pack any perishables in those shoeboxes! they end up in our tummies during inspection. ;)

oh happy new year, btw.

Thursday, 25 October 2007

have you ever spent an entire afternoon or evening online, just surfing, constantly checking your email, your xanga site, facebook, to see if anyone has contacted you, surf the net some more, looking for something meaningful to read, to do, to think about, yet not knowing exactly what you're looking for, but you continue to look, until the sunsets, until you feel hungry, then you start cooking, wonder whether anyone has thought of you, you leave the stove on, run aside the computer, log into email again, no new messages, hit "inbox" because maybe the computer doesn't refresh fast enough, still no message, you go back to your food, realize that you needed to defrost the chicken before you can cook it, turn down the heat, defrost the chicken in the microwave, rush back to the computer to log onto another site, run back to the microwave to retrieve your chicken that is now defrosted on the center but overcooked edges, but it's okay because everything ends up in the same place anyway, you put the chicken into the soup you're making, run back to the computer to "check messages" again, no one. you give up on the social sites, surf some more, try to get some connection with the outside world, even though live news is on, you still don't feel connected, you're home alone, it's kinda loud and really hot, but you don't give up.

Tuesday, 23 October 2007

Christmas in August

Christmas is absolutely my favorite time of the year! But this year, it started in August. I was actually really upset about it! One hot and sunny early August day some random open lot off the freeway hung a sign that read "Christmas Trees for Sale" and sure enough, there were probably 100 live trees on the lot. Mid August, Macy's started selling ornaments and Christmas trees in their home department! One week later, "jingle bells jingle bells" was ringing throughout Costco stores! Like a kid, I covered my ears so as not to hear christmas music. I couldn't believe it! Pretty soon - it'll be Christmas in March!!

On a different note, ditto to allergictochocolate's posting about xanga being a dying breed. I don't nearly check it as often, let alone post. technology is pulling us in all different directions...yahoo, hotmail, gmail, xanga, facebook, linkedin, myspace, friendster, AIM, msn, yahoo messanger, melo, and whatever else is out there! Where do people find the time??!

Monday, 23 April 2007

40 days

yes, 40 days until the big day. it doesn't hit me in the midst of planning, but once stepped back, my heart starts beating faster at the thought of walking down the isle. if you've been there, you know exactly what i'm talkin' about.

it's almost 4 years since c and i first met. each day is still an adventure with him. each day i learn something new about him and with each new realization, i can't help but be thankful and utterly grateful for God's plan for putting us together. how did He know? (i know the answer is obvious, but seriously, i continue to be in awe.) with all my uglies exposed before him and Him, i'm still accepted and loved. hard to believe. i'm glad that God is in control. can't imagine what life would be like without Him (and him).

feeling pretty chilled. but i still need shoes, even though c thinks no one will see my feet. "shoes make or break an outfit," i tell him. he doesn't really know why i need white and silver. i do and the photographer does. that's all it matters. we also need scripture verses. we like the provocative ones. hahaha. that's "TMI". speaking of TMI, one of the "get to know your friends email chains" i recently got asked the question "what color underwear are you wearing now". c'mon ~ do ppl really care? or is it just to fulfill some sick fantasy that someone had. i got annoyed and responded "none of your business". is that rude? it was from a girl.

so back to the big day...nothing more to share now, other than it's pure blessings from above. planning has not consumed me. having learned that women actually get 'post-wedding-depression" from all of a sudden having nothing to plan after the wedding, i refrain from doing too much, or from talking and thinking about it day and night. still read xanga each day, surf the net, check emails, and chat about life in general. oh and still work too.

wise words welcome!